They say that I brux,
A four letter word with no exclamation.
It’s the name they give to the pain,
Of trying to grind your body to dust.
Of trying to keep the scars from bleeding
Of trying to forget that tomorrow is still coming.
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A brutal physical manifestation,
Of the calcified sorrows and anguish,
And perpetual knowledge of inferiority,
That therapy and valium have yet to dissolve.
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I’m now left wondering,
How much more agony would it be
To face those emotional crypts,
Than to keep on fracturing my own teeth?
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(c) Accidental Tentacles 2017
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Thanks saucebox, I’ll pop over and have a look.
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Awesome!
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Crucial autocorrect issue in the final line. FFS. Fracturing not featuring…
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Damn, you’ve managed to put this pain into words so perfectly – it’s so shitty having to choose between several painful/destructive coping mechanisms that do actually help you in that moment of need but cause long-term damage, like ‘which of these evils is the least evil?’ It’s so hard to think of yourself in the long-run when you an’t even see yourself surviving til bedtime. Ugh. You’ve nailed it though, that sense of hopelessness and helplessness.
And, thanks to you, ‘brux’ has now officially been added to my lexicon! Excellent writing xx
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Awww thanks for your kind comments. It truly sucks when you think you’re holding your shit together by doings you weird daily avoidance dances, but your body keeps on fucking up all over the shop to remind you that, no, you are not OK and furthermore you suck at dancing.
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Well said yo
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Thanks!
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I do it too…Denteks my new religion
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Does it really help? I can’t have one made until all my nonsense broken fillings and teeth are fixed up first.
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Surprisingly…very much so… I still need tmj therapy but have been using a generic one and am hurting less…wow sounds brutal
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That’s encouraging but What the heck is tmj therapy and how long will I have to wait in the NHS to get me some of that??
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If your jaw is out of alignment like mine it can apparently be reversed a few cm with stints by a maxiofacial therapist, its why I grind at night, but may not be yours. Took me 15 years to figure out on my own.
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That’s cool. Glad there sorting you our finally. I never knew this was why I had so many headaches all the fucking time. 15 years was a long time to suffer. I’m pretty sure I grind because I’m a maladjusted adult who never learnt to deal with their emotions, but I’ve got a therapist for that already…
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I thought the same until an endodontist pointed it out and explained thats what the muscular pain, and migraines were from, exasperated my losing control during sleep. Once you heal up and get one you will be pleasantly surprised.
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Sweet! I can’t wait! Endodontists are awesomely clever aren’t they!?
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Some of the cleverest I’ve ever known
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Ah brux. Lovely awful word.
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Ah yes, I’ve tried everything…TMJ exercises, dental guard, Indian head massage, acupressure, meditation. But nothing stops me grinding my teeth down to dust…or leaving permanent teeth marks in my tongue 😦
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Have you tried valium? That seems to help me, but it’s not a longterm solution…
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Maybe when I was younger, but I don’t really do pills anymore. It’s gotten slowly better over the last year, so I can’t complain…it’s probably nowhere near as bad as yours. Hope you find something that works!
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Glad you have got a little relief over time. Tbh any pain is too much pain when it comes to teeth, and I think most sadists would even agree! I’ve got a script for the valium and whenever I take it, it fixes so many of my problems. If only there was a non-addictive version that didn’t risk seizures…
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I’ve kinda got used to the pain…it’s the tinnitus that drives me crazy (caused by teeth grinding)…even valium couldn’t fix that one!
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True. I’d prescribe headphones constantly playing Tool to drown out the buzzing 🙂 much nicer.
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On a more serious note though…Oh….well that might explain MY unexplained tinnitus too if it’s a known bruxism complication…bleh. The plot thickens.
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Well it’s definitely all linked for me…and it’s all linked to allergies too. But that’s just me…I’m weird and complicated like that…it might not be the same for you, so don’t take my word for it! 🙂
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Beautifully written and really deep I’d say ! Love your pieces !
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Thank you, thanks for stopping by. You’ve reminded me that I haven’t written in a while…
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Im so glad to know that – looking forward to read more – have a wonderful day!
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